A beginning to my end.....

I am addicted to pornography, a fact that I have been dealing with openly for quite a few years. When I say openly, I in no way mean that I make it known to everyone or shout it from the rooftops. But I have been open with my wife, and openly share with other men my stuggle to be free of this and to strive to be more like Christ.



This blog will be a public outpouring of the stuggles that I endure while striving to be more like Jesus. My stuggles with sex and pornography first led me to a para-church ministry called Sought Out, which conducts Living Waters. Living Waters is a ministry to those who are sexually broken, and in turn it deals with many of the heart issues in the lives of the sexually broken. Living Waters pointed me to the cross of Christ and explained the cycle of addiction, how to deal with these cycles, why they exist, and how to change and turn from my habitual brokenness. Living Waters helped me attack my addiction and take many much-needed steps in healing.

My next step in this journey is a more practical attack to this addiction. Today I will start a group called 'Becoming Whole'. Becoming Whole is a form of SALT (Sexual Addicts Learning Trust) that provides accountablity, and more practically attacks the addiction by implementing weekly sex history sheets, daily accountablity phone calls, and concentrates on the physical cycle of sex addiction first. Once the acting out of the addiction is more controlled, then the heart issues are addressed.

I start my Becoming Whole journey today in an attitude of openness and pray that the Lord uses this to bring my addiction more under control than it has been before. After Living Waters I did well.......for a while. My cycles are less frequent and I believe that Becoming Whole will help me to address my attitude toward sex, and my heart toward God.

The war has begun and I am ready to battle!!